Nothing prepares you for this, this feeling.

Lisa Ruddy

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Nothing prepares you for this. This feeling.

"Yes, your son has Asperger's. He's textbook, there is no doubt...."

My son is 11 and all I can do is wonder what in the past 11 years I have done to make him more screwed up.

Let's see.....The time I changed his room as a surprise; the navy blue light shade, the yellow walls; he wrecked the room.....broke the light, drew on the walls and I just thought he was bold.

The time I forced him to eat Linguine instead of Penne....

The time I made him wear red socks instead of black, (listen to Supernanny, what Mum says goes...), he ended up throwing his shoes at me and the red socks in the fire.

I thought it was me, I thought it was him, I never thought it was autism....

And now I know. And it's still hard. Really hard. But we're still in it for the long run and it's not really him and it's not really me....it's Asperger's.

And we're still here. I'm still here.

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